Play? Pause? or Rewind?

If only could I record my whole life
from my birth to the very present,
would I mourn the losses in repeat
or binge memories for their essence?

Would I create a time lapse of me
growing from an infant to a teen?
Or would I run in slow motion,
the wonderful smiles that I've seen?

Would I cut out the parts in between
filled with sorrow, agony and pain?
Or would I let it be and witness them
making me the "me" without refrain?

Would I rewind back the tape and
jump back to my innocent childhood?
and would I pause back when I reached
the peak of the slide and felt good?

Would I run through my marksheets
as everyone deemed it important?
or Would I look at the memories
I made in the backbench, whole-hearted?

Would I fast forward my present
to see where my tombstone lies?
Or would I just leave things to destiny
and give myself a bit of a suprise?

But when I retrospect about all this
It's better off the way life already is
because it's better to trade control
for the unanticipated adventures it gives.